withholding answers.
Living as a single person comes with its highs and lows. There are so many ways to enjoy the time that exists in this stage of life; and just as many moments longing for the time when that time can be enjoyed with a partner. Whatever the goal, activity, plan, moment, or season – it can be easy to think “this could be so much more fun with someone by my side.”
The Lord revealed something to me that gave so much perspective and more than that, gratitude.
For years, I’ve been praying, hoping, longing for when I will meet the one person that will be my partner for life. The person who has the same eternal perspective, and beliefs, and is willing to live a life that reflects those convictions and values. The person who will understand and appreciate me more deeply than anyone else, and who I can understand and appreciate all the same.
I’ve met men who I had hoped would become this life-long partner. Over the time in the relationship, I discover they are not. This has left me discouraged, frustrated, sometimes angry, confused, and defeated.
Over this time, I have also wrestled with and shifted some beliefs I’ve held most of my life; some that I would call “traditions of religious beliefs.” As the Lord has unveiled His calling for me, I’ve had to dive deep into His Word and ask Him to reveal His truth to me… no one else’s perspective of truth – but only His truth.
As I’ve adjusted my mind and heart attitude to be in tune with His, He spoke so clearly to me, Chrysta, I haven’t withheld your heart’s desire for a husband to harm you or punish you; I’ve done it to protect the plans I have for you. I’ve shown you the unique calling I’ve placed on your life, and if I had allowed you to marry anyone before altering your perspective, you couldn’t have fulfilled that calling.
I was in awe at his protection and the gratitude that swelled inside me was overwhelming.
Here’s what I want to leave you with:
Perhaps God has protectively withheld an answer to a petition or desire because a shift is needed to a currently held mentality or belief that could have otherwise altered the entire course of the unique purpose we are designed to fulfill by God Himself. He’s patiently waiting for us to encounter a revelation that will shift our perspective, providing a wide-open door for His lavishing our desires upon us.
Take some dedicated time to ask yourself this question, and also ask the Spirit of God to give you discernment and willingness to receive what He reveals to you.
Could my current placement be withholding an answer to a deep desire, if that space still seems to fall within a previously held belief that has now personally been transformed by the revelation of God’s Word? Does my location effect God’s answers? Geographically? Vocationally? Spiritually? Mentally? Emotionally?
